God give me strength to fulfill your wish...
I'm grateful You let me live in such beautiful world like this...
I'm thankful for never letting me down alone...
Forgive me I cant do better as they wish for...
But I do really trust You've been givin' me the best best best families, friends and love, everythin..
I do love 'em God...
Protect 'em for me and give 'em best just as You always gimme:)
This is what I wish for my b'day gift today :) ...
Please always beside me, God :)
I do realize, I've never been good enough to everyone who love me...
So please, give 'em much better than they ever gave me...
I wish I could hold my tears now, but I cant...
How dare I ask you for this?
I never even to place You in my heart when I'm happy or sad...
But why You always gimme more than I ever ask?...
Do You still love me and think that I'm still your child?
I'm not deserve that, Father :(
I'm not good enough to be your child...
I'm not pure as You sent me 20 years ago to my present parents...
Why? Why are You confusing me with your love?
I always cried when I pray to You... It was...
I always smile and say thanks to You when I knew something good... It was...
I always pray for You on time... It was...
I always ask my Father to be the leader to pray... It was...
Now?... You know everythin...
I don't even wanna hear Your name called!!!
See? How bad I am?
Do You still believe me I can make it?...
Hopeless... That's all I can say...
I need someone to change me as yesterday...
I lost everyone I love... They're just vanished...
I always tried to make myself sure that You'd gimme the best...
But I don't know how to figure it out as "best way"...
I lost Your guide...
I need Your angels to make me stop pretending You're gone...
God, I need You to touch my heart once again...
Show me that I deserved to be loved by You!
I'm sick avoiding You...
I'm tired but I'm scare You won't accept me this time :(
I'm really scare...
All I can do just cry in my room without no one know...
You took my smile when I was with my beloved family...
You took my laugh when I was with my bestfriends...
You took my only bestfriend who could listen to me when I cry and laugh...
You took them all!
I don't know what left in me...
I lost my everything...
I lost You!!!
Guide me...
To brighter way...
Hold me...
Never let me go and make me still by Your side...
Comfort me...
Share me Your love...
I need that love, God..
I need You more than everythin...
I promise I'll forgive and forget all the things used to hurt me...
And be continued to remember all the things made me happy...
As long as You with me...
Love me once again, God...
That's all I ask for my b'day gift this time...
